what's it all for?

Comment In The Arms Of The Angel Lyrics Spend all your time waiting For that second chance For a break that would make it okay There's always some reason To feel not good enough And it's hard at the end of the day I need some distraction Or a beautiful release Memories seep from my veins Let me be empty Oh and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight In the arms of the angel Fly away from here From this dark cold hotel room And the endlessness that you fear You are pulled from the wreckage Of your silent reverie You're in the arms of the angel May you find some comfort here So tired of the straight line And everywhere you turn There's vultures and thieves at your back The storm keeps on twisting Keep on building the lies That you make up for all that you lack It don't make no difference Escaping one last time It's easier to believe In this sweet madness Oh this glorious sadness That brings me to my knees In t...

Chester may you be at peace. I was so close to joining you two days ago

The need to be nasty has never sat within me very well and I make every effort to ensure that people cannot put me in a postion that could essentially change my life again, and I would assume, something I rarely do, that the change would be for the worst, usually it is. All I've craved since returning is to feel safe and loved which shouldn't be too much to ask of my family and friends but again I assumed and that ensured I got fucked again. Peace and happiness are emotions just like rage and hatred neither ever lasts emotions are forever changing  

It's official we are homeless and have no where to go. All these years I've never thought about helping other people its just been natural to me. If i see someone that isn't having the best time and I'm able to help than without thinking that's what i do help. Do i expect anything in return? NEVER. If anything i would think that you become my friend and if one day i needed you IE to phone up and talk to, that i would be blessed to have you to turn to. I would give my friends anything. I have given my friends everything i have, a place to live, food to eat, clothes to wear. I've given them my time and energy, they have had a 100% of me when they have needed it. Never expecting anything in return.  Throughout the years I've called upon my friends a handful of times and more times than i care to remember I've gone unanswered or been given the i wish i could help but i cant. I have always thought that my problems have no answer no fix there for I've ...