what's it all for?

OK so I went through my google photo and shoebox photos and found copies of text's from Mia's father that were extremely nasty, unfounded and alcohol affected every day.  Once mia came along that was it if he did fuck it up again,see ya fucker. He did it almost straight away. I remember the emotion of it then and still do now because I read utter lies about the type of person I was. People believe the rubbish let them not one of the chatterbox shit cunts was with me then and not one is here now. If people want to ask about my private life ask me, spineless is all those types are 

No matter how far you have travelled in the wrong direction, you can always turn around!   This is raw, real and necessary. This is the kind of shit you need to do when it's time to dump toxic energy that has been swimming around inside you for far too long. I know we never talk about the pain and that's ok. We don't need to. There's no point in rehashing all the shit that happened or what YOU did. How I felt then is very different from how I feel now.

Hi, Check out my Complete Numerology result below. Your Name Initials N - Your extroverted nature wins you new friends. E - Ingenuity is your strength. W - You are gregarious and have many friends. You can also get your Complete Numerology Profile with this totally free Android app: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.internetdesignzone.numerology

Hi, Check out my Complete Numerology result below. Your Hidden Talents You are organized and solid. People see you as the rock on which they can lean. You have the skill to make order out of chaos and your biggest skills are the most practical. You are wise and calm and a gentle soul. You are a great stabilizer, and your greatest goal in life is to make a happy environment for those around you. You can also get your Complete Numerology Profile with this totally free Android app: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.internetdesignzone.numerology

Ruling Number 5 - The planet Mercury governs this number and those born under it are shrewd, mentally alert, industrious, diplomatic, intuitive and have sharp business acumen and a scientific temper. You are naturally attracted to people born between September 21 and October 20, between January 21 and February 20. You also have an affinity for those governed by the numbers 1, 5, 7 and 8. Number 5 is associated with business so you should enjoy great material success. You are shrewd and industrious and you should be able to build up a successful career for yourself. You are active and quick and agile, both physically and mentally. You are a good orator and are able to express yourself eloquently. You are self-motivated and have the ability to take your plans to their logical conclusion. You are deeply entrenched in family life and will cherish your children. Everything you do is characterised by speed, efficiency and determination. You like travelling and love change all the time. Yo...

Lucy Ann Carr Whiteford (1833 - 1923) - Find A Grave Memorial Birth:  Sep. 29, 1833, England Death:  1923 Wentworth Shire New South Wales, Australia Family links:  Parents:    Vince Carr (1803 - 1889)    Sarah Ann  Sweetnam  Carr (1809 - 1868)  Spouse:    William George Whiteford (1833 - 1917)  Siblings:    Vince Carr (1827 - 1898) *    Sarah Ann  Carr  Richens (1831 - 1880) *    Lucy Ann  Carr  Whiteford (1833 - 1923)    Henry Carr (1835 - 1913) *    Eliza Ann  Carr  Gregory (1848 - 1935) *    George Edward Carr (1852 - 1931) * * Calculated relationship   Burial: Rookwood Necropolis Rookwood Cumberland Council New South Wales, Australia Plot: Area: Zone A, Section: Old Ground Ext, Grave: 4298 Created by:  Sharon Rudd Record added: Sep 01, 2016 Find A Grave Memorial# 169196365

When he died he took happiness with him. Whatever happiness I've found since is taken by people who promised to protect my broken heart